Cures In Eulogy?

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Theatre of Scars 03:42
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Niteme mate kwa jua inazama, hii si vita no more? Nisepe fungate, na trauma ndio nimejaza kwa roho? Nimwage rainbow juu ya milima za gold Penye waliotuwacha wanashower raindrops Nafsi jukwaa, hadhira initupie rosy petals Trophy ni ya dhiki, chuma ziliokota ma-matyr Society Machiavellian Sorcery kwa chamber, fox theatre, injili ni ya simba wa Yuda Kingstocracy, witness ni ya Jehovah Ukishindwa kukidhi, jua uchi huuza Ukizimbukwa, jua hakuna kitu graver zidi pen Kaburi si wote uozo, concrete cross au matope Thoughts, kuna garage ya broken train For so long, ashamed nilificha hii pain Alarm mtaa ni jogoo Busu ya Judas, slingshots, power corridors Nimecome vicorrect Usiue game, lugha yangu bandaged Chini ya Kalvari ndio shadows ziutest faith Matope esoteric John the Baptist, command prompts za biblical end Necromancer, navuja vitu period haijaelement Napalm blaster, vagary ni understatement Unaezaquarentine fate ndani ya chest? Unaezaquantify bets veto votes hupocket? Avatars, me sibelong here kwa bloody planet Vultures, parody ni carcass kujificha ndani ya closet Narrative ni mizinga, weed na vilio Mara ni, militia, booty kwa telly ndio ujio Gazeti gated, now I know why the singing bird gets caged Hauwezuonja maumivu nimehifadhi Vidonda, dosari, lawama nimepoteza hadhi Ulimi forbidden Kichwani tombstone, Kalenda template Nashift dates body yangu ni reject Mistari sadness, niko possesd na dead poets Yo They say things cannot grow Beneath a seed canyon winter snow I only breathe pain Everytime I peel my flesh Pulled out of destroyed reveries And yet we never quit I bless with my poetry Make love, memorise and reminisce At nights name your stars, remember me When it rains, dance don't feel broken Philosophy stone, I bear light from heaven So morbid was the day I was breathing through the machine Thinking of my seventeen seconds of death Poetry in motion I rose to pluck flowers in the morning Is like, everytime the sun is half invisible Leaving nights, bleeding moons exposed Fireflies mourn Singing fire, bright fire in my soul I'm a movement, remember my struggles If I survived through so could you If I stayed alive so could you If I opened my soul, so would you! What's pain? What's the meaning? I carry scars in my strength Walking felt ashamed I carry scars in my strength Ah, hii ni kwa wenu nyinyi asanteni kwa kuniimua kwa hii safari. Blessed are the flexible for they shan't be bent out of shape. Keep your eye on the drishti. Breathe. Don't forget to breathe.
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Black Dahlia 03:26
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Msalaba 5:36 05:36
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Msalaba wa Mwisho Mbalamwezi ilijificha sadly Fikra za kusurvive enzi grimy '92 Kuna misimu ziuhamisha nafsi, na skills za poacher, body tu ni mavazi Ilikuwa Ochuka akiandika ndoto kwa daftari El presidente, GoK, Airforce alikuwa revolutionary Scars kwa body ndio uzani nimecarry Rafiki niliokuwa nao nimehave kubury ulimi ikibaki Medinci Hii verse ili rewritiwa Kanyandong akishukishwa chini Hapo kando tukabaki, macho ikiondoka machozi Past ndani ya dimbwi Bega za Yimbo ikabeba sunset za magharibi Msalaba ikakuwa heavy ka biro inazungusha kaseti jua kitambo, risasi na magazine, Left over kwa nembo, vesi nafsi inatema duni Je, kuta za mbinguni kuna uponyaji Kile si hupitia memories zimeshindwa kufariji Nipe maua, after picha zilitafsiri saratani Roho ilibaki hoi, One time nilikuwa nabonga nawewe Next Jack Junior analia, ukaenda ukatuwacha lonely Dance with angels When cherries blossom, throw us some lovely petals I try to sing with a broken cello Dear Kanya, the cancer didn't get you You was beautiful, powerful Thank you for memories, we gone mourn till we join you! Nafikiri kila muda, kila saa Kabuti nimepigwa, kwa soul tu nafeeel nimechoka Iliandikiwa giza, nuru ya alfajiri tu bahati Ulimi umemwaga wino Kwa kibunga nikivuka bahari bila njia Kutoka mwisho mwanzo yasivyoisha Kamwe nafsi shimo hauwezikuichimbia Ni ka place, bila nafasi, bila muda Nahitaji japo kitu cha kuaminia Mwanzo ilikuwa freshy tu, sometimes nawonder ni wapi nilikosea? Ahsante ma, bibi uliniinua hata kama nilikosa baba Kuna hadithi siezisema Niliona dreams zikififia, wengi wakanitoroka ati nilikuwa lawama We unajua dhahabu scars huficha? Ndio tukitema toka from the past, mziki imebeba future? Ndio tukihema choka black, miti kutungoja closer? Ghafla hawakutaki tena Nje ya hoodie, kichwa imebeba tu gharika Mapenzi tulikopa Ukamba tuliingiza kichwa Kila letter kwa orodha suicide imeguza Kila weather hii soul imevuka Half familia iko pale chini Historia ikafutika, mtaa tukabaki yatima Ugonjwa mbaya ikanishika, hospitali hakuna cure Blackbird. I pull these from down deeper Drowning my soul in a verse Untold stories, to find you you need to dig deeper Walisema vile nzi zinangoja kutufyonza Hakuna upendo, ghetto uchawi, mauaji na visa Streets hazikupendi? Jahidina Kaburi plastered na bovu kichwa Chanda chema fingers zangu ziko death row Achandra chandra, agucha otimo iro Chunya chieng'nopodhi, Ochuka chieng' ayud yueyo '82 Airforce airbender body yangu ikigo faulty Table za Chiromo, gava ilazwe na risasi fifty Bendera ni ya chuma Shoka ikipatana na tupa Genocide ukabila inatunza disaster? 1984 shamba baado ni la wanyama, Kwa graves maua tu ndio zimekuzwa? Natema ether Nacet kiu kali, baado nangoja ile siku moja ya Vigeti Si hutema kile wataplay siku uko ndani ya hearse So siku nimekata mbali hewa Mnichome ka mifupa nyi huchoma nazo blazers Stole; Raw-land, dunia imebaki wasteland Soul; Cobbler na sticky fingers Ni mara ngapi nimekosa sijafiwa? Cancer ilibeba nafsi sijarejeshewa Razor ilikata bustani maua zikaishiwa, Mind spray, Toka cradle hadi on ma last day Toka blackhole, soul yangu far away Kalamu kumwaga stanza Ka ni glory i guess pain ni godly Love and light homie true story Il cancro ha portato via la mia anima Le lame Razer hanno distrutto i miei fiori Spruzzo della mente Dalla culla fino al mio ultimo giorno Dai buchi neri alle anime che vanno lontano Penne per stanzas Se la gloria è dolore, sono amorevole Amore e luce, cara storia vera
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4th Quartet 01:26
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Track - 4th Quartet My soul skipping the playground rope Mind glitters eternal gold The spade shovels my image of black gods The quiet storm Photographs of memories blossom And the moon serenades Eulogium, let my thoughts penetrate Do you remember, dry walls and wet paints Her laughter resembles my mother's face Dead philosopher's pain Baby pictures gleam Like destiny on a dirty wheel Push my soul, puke my soul The dawn of sunset With sad bars quartet Break my bread, feed my scars Slaving over pain, fixed on a death set Are we free Where blood still trickles on the grave? Verses of the weather decorates Outbursts The soul captures peaks of the decibel I'm a rebel Scalpels blooming on bladed apparel Leaving battles bloated on the page Birds sing to glory Demonstrate Love for cure, write my eulogy
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Audacity 02:15
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Audacity Ochuka Talking: How can time heal, if time is wounded of itself? These clocks have gathered moss, look at their souls, aren't we all all paradise lost? Feathers growing through stretchmarks of graves, reminded that to rise, to rise we must remain subtle in imagination but dare-odds stuck against the unruly hero moments of life? But what's time separated of itself? I still, I still break a piece of my soul and throw pellets into my bloodstream full of sharks, making even the dangers of derangement, the audacity to defy clarity, the thick posthumous satires of old forests rotting on the walls of home! I still walk to flower shops with a burial overdue. I still, love like God's menses are in the morning dew. Eroded, peeled off wrinkled raisins and black-eyed pea. And with a backcross test, I still self-preserve, self-destruct, shelve these bars, gravy batch, I still drip... drops, moon-clots of a widow's sorrow. There's no tomorrow. Today is infinitesimal. Round the clover like a sad butterfly parking for its funeral. Yesterday is gone. Body of salt and a life wide of wounds. These questions. Each petal, pedals an arm of god. An army crawls, rebels turn these manifolds. Manifestos. Money, payroll. Unchain the Django. Totems & Guns, land and votes. Redeem your soul without the cadaver on the cross. But see I have been loud about the silent nights, lonely. Drowning, deep. Dying to have known. This is Mike written on woods. I am. Because I am. Jodeci Trivia, the candlelight vigil fierce in the heart of raging winds Unplug the cables "What are you afraid of?" Question "Bondage." Answers self afraid of itself The spotlight is hollow not charming as the influence of subversion So we 9-millimetre Burst brains afraid of the crying picture In valleys of unstoppable doubting Mind is my instrumentalist I dare, gods for their sick humours I am. Rare. Sublime pair of abyss. Breathing dragonfly, fire. Comatose, and I re-fuse to give up.
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Dedication to Melancholia 03:23
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Dedication to Melancholia Nalet it drain sabu veins zangu ni hopeless Nilipenda in cold blood hisia zikasuffer loses Sijakuwa brave vile nilikuwa back then Adjourned na lifespan convicted kwa court room Unawonder ni fate ndio utaseal Wakati kuta zina-crumble on you? We dream like martyrs Struggles nishachoke, naplan murder ya beti kwa verse Fault ya stars, Nimecover scars kwa shadow, atimes nashindwa kulook back I'm fading, huku ndani mass destruction na bootstrap Boozeman, what's love ka kile nakumbuka ni Bevy quiet ndani ya hearse Hakuna honour kwa kambi ya thugs Ushaitafuta your missing parts? Nimehold breath yangu over Kungoja ndio the worst, kungoja dhiki ya nafsi kupass Sorry nimengoja too long Naimani though after journal kuwasha the next thing liquor, mahomie wanamourn uko gone Nafigure out kosa zangu bridges nimeburn Kusharpen blades Kubow heads, lower guillotine kwa neck Natafta home that's why nikibleed huwaga nimekueka close Baado nasaka hii glow Kukiwa giza sifichi hii soul Monument ni tissue na bones Najua kuna siku utaenda lakini hakuna kitu itabreakisha hii bond Kuna day utanitoka ukisema kosa si yangu mi yako Nakuwazia mema body ikitengana na soul My little sweet baby "Your absence has gone through me Like thread through a needle. Everything I do is stitched with its color." -W. S. Merwin
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Misunderstood 01:58
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Track - Misunderstood Drenched in mellow melodies Perfect temple, mural mind-spray memories My soul been dark lately Thoughts still blacken, my life pulling a great shift Bars from my brother, flow low-key Red flowers for ma, grams and lover Silhouettes, the piano keys bless through the broken fingers Picturesque, feel my inkflow pierce through the vinyl Late nights, perils on doorsteps We were trapping moonlight to watch the eclipse Mike Wudz, Labyrinth Told me I got stories matching Iliad or Odyssey Sometimes, we traded bravery through oddities Held my hands through the storm When the world was ready to carry me home Thank you for crossing the river wide Cures in eulogy You were doing great until everything died Failed memories Remains and wastes, the bleakest metonym We filled rhymebooks with scars cause we were scared to breathe Heads above water, Passing fire through a lung of clay to make bricks Borrowed time, the story of life Seal my fate like death squad soldiers on the front line Late night fellowships My diary is filled with thousands sunken ships The pain in your eyes Angels burning their wings when you blink Your sad eyes speak my language inside I reminisce A crown of thorns, your kindness was blessing me
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What Gives You Hope [Skit] 01:15
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Once In August 01:28
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Track - Once in August Ngima machiek mawango Chalo gi pot yath malwar Chalo goboke matop ret piyo Ulimi ni mob, language ni pain Hills alilazwa thoughts, casket ikishuka conveyer belt Stendi maua furnished na black rose Udongo ukakuziba, grave yako ikabeba cross Nlikuwa mdogo Nakumbuka poetics ukidai ati grass will grow Penye tuliblow candles Saa hii ni grave stretch, umelazwa hapo kando Loved ones walifuata Siku za birthday, strangle keys na saxophone Lonesome, nafsi tatters Kitu ka razorblade, lonely ka picture kwa wall Mvua ikianguka na mawingu ni grey Imani pekee ndio inanitunza japo mko far away Msimu zangu setbacks, downfall Na siku zakulayback, nightfall Kupenya through safari za ku sadikika Upendo umenivisha makovu vita Kadri siku zinavyokwenda Rafiki anageuka nyoka anafatalize your soul So mkitema baraka from the dark clouds Mngekuwemo Kuona binti anavyotabasam Kuonja jinsi ninavyotema fam Nafsi imechoka bovu Nashindwa kujadili kwa nini kila siku hofu Ananishika mkono kunibusu Najua wanatuona toka far away, aminia
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Dying To Have Known 03:37
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Dying To Have Known Seven nails to hole you The nightwell full of dreams, blues Faithless with a shrugged atlas walking in my mind’s black tomb nourished like a mummy Black holes and dark cloudscapes, soot Beads die slow. One, strand. Second, milky Between suckling needles on the bosoms Bereaved levitation, forklifts red flowers wither and blossoms Back peddle, god-energy, the postscript emerge with the glossary At night I was sailing in my own blood, tear falls, mama’s sorrow Sonograms are murky Scalpels are my better days Lead poison, that’s why I hide blades inside the pencil See a pencil like books are dead trees Dead poetry and another coffin with radioactive liturgies Iliad moss gatherings Sunshine in my lungs, dying to have known And a pocket full of earth A broken clue, winds whisper and grave stretchmarks [Hook] Blue nights Black skies Set your soul free Moonlight My child Spread your wings wide The veins full of thorns The veil gloom and torn Love blood and light flowing inside And am dying to have known dying to have known dying to have known This is where the angels bleed Grandeur, courage reward my griefs When this souls goes heavy and the rifles rock, poetry on death bed Fugitive to fate like lambs and flock And am looking for home Shipwrecks composing melodies while words paint pictures on a cross The wooden sorrow When the ballot drowns the rope on the folly crow And every wall I know is studded with sorrow Glory, O glory Love letter stapled on dry bones while I ferry afterlife on a broken boat No cure The shelf invisible, hold on while I breathe from jars of clay fetal blues, iron flags half-mast, skies are blue and the mind is grey? Sweet baby Grow your flowers from the furnace, uproot my pain, amber lights of February I hope you fetch me from your deepest wells And if I lever down, I will look inside you and see myself The prophet of the grain Salt chisels through the wounds, when I bled I saw you pray Harps and little dreams When the sea was home, and the earth was our final resting place Mother said am an instrument Papa left hereafter on my face And brothers went to war came back with knife scars, we all regret The prodigal son I write till the day they spit my eulogy to the pit We break bread and inspire with words Crime scenes and having scaffolds I take you where time breathes I create you from a broken rib The story of my life Dead leaves carried by the winds Footfalls, bread from stones Wet thumbs, broken fingers flip the scriptures Poetry in motion Street scars, light from the black star I wonder why cancer rhymes with answers Crawling in trenches, boots and helmets I lay my heavy limbs Life outstretch Memories of burying the sunset IV drips, the roots of roses Sad like an orchard of hope What happens when we live? We earn life through tragedies Explode with strength Tumours can be a mockery They say words heal So I put my charm when I bleed Just play this song and reminisce
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PTSD 03:02
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Track - PTSTD Verse 1: Hoping for better days ahead Hoping for ways yaku-bring in some of hii bread It's like a jungle out here and I've been feeling niko lost Alone bila namna yaku-find my way home And I got some good friends and family too But i don't think they overstand okay maybe they do But if you were walking in my shoe tell me what would you do? When everytime you came close Well that's just it You came close and knock but the door gets locked And they calling me a pessimist for telling things the way it is The weight is on my shoulder and its heavy thought l told yah You dealing with a present post traumatic wounded soldier Hook: So don't push me cause I am close to the edge And I am trying not to loose my head Verse 2: Don't push me I'm close to the edge I might be tripping and losing my head So I sit down thinking Writing and reminiscing I have a message and I hope you gone listen From God and my experience That's what this is I always bear in mind relevance is what am spitting And I pay attention And listen as I speak to the crowd I hope that imma reach them Life's been a struggle Hustling daily basis I've walked round And I've seen many faces In my book I wanna close this chapter Look forward to the life ita-come after Outro: I have been a lone song for long Pouring all emotions in a song (in a song) Okay I have done, many things to regret (regret) And though I try, I cannot forget (get) And by the time, that you call the late (I die) I hope y'all would've forgiven my mistakes
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Al Inkishafi 04:23
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Track- Al Inkishafi Nilinde ulimi nisijehifadhi malipo ya dhambi Baada ya mwili kukosa hadhi kubadilikiwa rangi Bahari giza ya kutojua vipi itakuwa njiani Fahari beti, natulia tu ndio hisia zisiende duni Inasikitisha silaha kali Wanaumizana juu ya mauzo na fame kwenye kiwanda Kawaida ya ramani, roho imependa huwa haina kificho Moyo haujawahi kuuma, imani ninazokosa nazipata nikijitunza Ukitoa ulinzi vile dunia sometimes hutafsiri Mwisho maisha sio kifo, mara ngapi nimezikwa hali bovu bila mchongo? So naomba ukae nami tutazame nyota angani Peponi rangi machozi beauty yako mbooni Wakati uhai unapokelewa mikononi mwa anayechonga hatma na hiari Sifuati muda kama vumbi ikinikuna moto za ndimi Mlemavu kiraka uzi umetafuna vidonda kwa hivyo kupona siamini Tunahema kwa mic tujue ka we still breathing Penye kinyesi kuna ukombozi ingawa wengi tunakejeli Ndoa safi Ahsante ma ulinifunza itikadi mema Shukrani kwa ninayempenda kwa dhati Pete kidole nafinya piano babu skiza nafsi yangu Portal Keys Pasipo mwanya ntamwaga wino Sadaka za imani Nitakufuata, hadi kwa giza ndani Kesho zikakuwa siku moja bila wewe Mlotangulia tukiwa msongamano zamani Nitakufuata hadi kwa giza ndani Nyumbani ikiwa tu pain, nichune denda nikumbatie, usniwache nidie lonely Hook: Ah ah Al inkishafi Tonesha donda wino safi Ah ah Al inkishafi Dunia, nyota mblamwezi Ah ah Al inkishafi Ndio nikiondoka fadhili yangu nafsi Naongoza beat hata dhidi ya maradhi moyoni Kisiwa cha maji machungu Hakuna raha, Kifo baado hakina huruma Nachoma magode ndio nifukie kitabu cha mistari na moshi, mifupa kisu kufuma Kinara bonde za mauti Ajali ikawacha mtazamo na picha imechomeka Ka mjane na kasumba tamaduni, daftari ikitia alama mtihani zilikoseka Wanaoniinua nikiwa chini Rafiki sijawahitaja japo nikikumbuka machozi hunidondoka machoni Tarumbeta kwa wenye roho safi Pembeni sina hadhi ila hakuna siku upendo wangu kwako umekuwa na tamati Nikiongezwa siku kwa kalendar Siku moja nitawatunza maua bikra tena tender Niko booth beti za weather Miale nishati nanusurika kwa rehema Niondoke daraja Pambio, zungusha santuri Fulusi haiwezikuinunua faraja Hakuna siku sina mtazamo wa jamii yangu huwaga Barua ya vita Ka monk analemaza body natalaamika Bila courage sijui ka tungewahiheshimika Nikiwa broken, mziki hunifarijisha Msalaba ilizidi kisaliti Mwili ulichinjwa surgery Na mingi scars kwenye diary Takasa binadam kwenye sayari Kwa misa nimeghubika ubani Sometimes sorrow jangwani Ninapotazama miiba zimetoboa miili Upendo umelea nyuma jukwaani hawatakikufikiri Dini yangu elimu ya roho, sidhaminiki kidini ndo maana naitwa kafiri Underground Africa tumenajisiwa kwa nyeti hatujafarijika Pasipo kifo hakuna maisha tena Maandiko tuna kesha usiku kucha klichoenda kirudi tena Chuma almasi matope johari vita medali baada ya mbio kuishia kwa pri Kinembe keketa Makucha footprints zikifuatana kwa coma Jua liki-tupwa kaburi la jioni Ujana bila hata imani Wanauliza naandika vipi sheria za mlumbi Juu ya mlima nikaanguka ka malaika bila glory nikitema tembe kumi Ah Ochuka Ka singekuwa infinity na nukta ningekuwa muumba Ala hisia zangu hulka
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Way Beyond 03:36
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Way Beyond Nilipoishiwa tumaini nilibwagwa chini Body ilingoja cure, nafsi ilikosa imani Damu nzito, hii ni kwa fam na marafiki Nashusha wino mlipo far hamsahauliki Ingawa siku zimezidi, mziki imelinda nafsi Muda nahisi lonely, nachora toka deep ndani Mitaani upendo hofu Inabidi ubattle vita maisha ikupambe kovu Sijaenda far homie, tutagongana sometimes Ukitema dua nisadikie nafsi ipate amani Maisha si kama povu Kadri siku zinavyosonga unashikwa kutu Nimepata nimezidiwa ila zote nashukuru Nimegubikwa giza saa zingine nakosa nuru Ni ka pen ni IV Ni curse pain calamities Afya yangu imeshuka, ninachoka sifahamiki Ila sikati tamaa, njiani picha nitafsiri Mziki iniponye roho, vidonda vinistahimili Hii ni kwa mama, mjomba, shangazi na bibi Imekuwa ni muda hatujapatana (homie) Namiss rangi ya black rose maua (homie) Nawahifadhi nafsini, makumbusho kila time (homie) Natema toka ndani kungoja siku nalazwa mbali Ramani sipotezi, hata body ikichoshwa hali We win wars, we bleed through scars true story! Huu moyo umevunjwa Huu mwili umetemewa mate, umedhoofika singekewa Nimewachwa lonley maze Mnaapiana kiahidi kisa kubadili picha yake Kitu sorrow, nafsi imejazwa upweke Siku unakosa picha Mchango unakosa sifa Bless my soul, break my soul Asali na shubiri, mkate umepakwa wishwa Simango masengenyo Babu alishuka chini simanzi ikanijaza nembo Ndoto zikageuzwa temple Maombolezi, mlezi anafilisiwa mwanzo Ila imani tunazobeba Na beti tunazotema Hela ilikosekana, nafurahi ulinipenda Nivutie waya ukinihisi Memories: majaribio tu kwa wingi Aminia: wanaokufadhili, wanaokujenga enzi Dunia imekubleki Siku zimekuweka blemish
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Ramani 04:39
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Track - Ramani Ilikuwa mazish razor ilibusu florist Stencils, siku uliondokea safari ya mbali Wire zilikatika Kibunga kikali, tuli- chek kikao cha mbalamwezi Blood shadows, kuvutwa pain kuanza hatua mpya Tulichuuza forks slow dance fond Ubani ulilelea uki-cloud clocks Tuka, zika scalpels kwa mdomo. Mbinguni tulitazama hopeless Antenna zikawa radarless Na tena kipawa less Nafsi ilichoka shoka ikipasua battle haifightiwi na guns Further, god sun kwa msalaba Mtazamo ukawa duni ila tulijihifadhi rohoni kutumia mifupa kavu kama kuni, Tulioza, crowdfire ya nzi kutufyonza Tulizama, kuhofia nani kutuongoza? tulingoja cemetery, maua kwa graveside chini ya Crossmarks Baado ulitazama visivyosawa kuwa njema Na-dub tape mbili za rambirambi Wengi si hu-dream City ya Gotham makovu na milima za Golgotha siku za mwisho kwa bonde saba Baado mi hungoja kibali cha msalaba Misumari blunt Baado mi hukumbuka mother akiomba ku-break barriers Baado nakumbuka ahadi ulimpa bibi, sijui ka ombi lake lilifika? Baado nikiona picha za [Isis] ulimi huonja jivi, jivu ya blackbird Hiari ya mapenzi, kisu cha ngariba Ilibidi mkate sacramental damu nectar Ilibidi nigeuze shackle chains conveyer Ilibidi past ndio ibakikuwa future Baklava Kuna maktaba, dreams zijawahikufa Raisins kwa jua si wote huishia mchanga Kuna idhaa na-feel self-eraser Nianze safari mpya Kuna siku kadhaa nikiji-tazama kuna dilemma ya mwezi jua na nyota Niko kwa lab na decoder, kilio Cha darubini Kwa bloodline flow ya meli zikizama kwenye njia Kwa kichwa kuna blackout Uzani haushindi mungu kubeba? Au ni draft ya Tesla Chronicles za Plato kwa Polygraph? Au ni gravity ilikosa ploti kaburi kuchimba? Na kila nikijitakasa Nightmare Braille ina- build canvas kwa picha Btw Baado nakumbuka visu vikinifuma Picha plastered Nikizi-kumbuka me hu-gather angels kwa clusters Ni ramani bovu Baado me huamini kabla carpenter kipimo ncha Ka' ni kovu hili bustani, Sikamiliki ila siamini mimi makosa Ni tailor Ni gurney, machela au The Stretcher? Ni figo Fig tree, mbuyu, mchicha Mipigo, mizigo tunazobeba Machozi, mauti tu na vidonda Ni bonde lipi sijawahi finger Index encrypted Bariki bosoms za mother kwa kulisha ulimi huu na black powder Thread ya kaseti hufanya nijiblast Nafsi yangu toka kitambo gifted Tafakari ma-scholar, ma-poet kwa symposia My mind glistens Bila ku-corrupt-iwa na evil intel Soleri Kodi za Anna, Soul yangu ikitema silabi mfano godly Lucida na arm-type kazi isiyo na kesi Usiyebadili-ka Majani ya muda Usiyeoza, unayerehemu wasiyofarijika Ka-ti Ya jana, kesho na leo tukivuka vidhibiti Kwa upweke un'ozidi viti vilivyoko bustani Rivers rise, and flow Flowers bleed, and grow This is god swimming my ink-arrow The grace The blessed, rock The veins of my soul Penning a place, where we all go [...]
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Don't Let It 01:47
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Track - Don't Let It I feel empty, it's like my soul erased Forklift, and watch my soul levitate Don't go missing, watch my pain fade Nights happen Put my feet on the gravel Raise my thoughts like broken limbs Drowning death in daylight dreams Sodom apples via knives Wartorn gamble, pro-tender vilified Bottled cures, prose bender victimized Stopclocks tick tock the wrist Thoughts drain even the rich in the mind Fingers grow pencils But mass charade, they don't let it Figures blow they drift Plasma crowded radio don't lift My soul And phone's still ringing And souls keep crying Keep pushing Blood, boots, people dying And the king still blind Blast, brutes, leaves fall drying Ghetto withers her soul The mental pictures unfold Pills and blades Shadows of shadows pinned to the cross Breathing through the ropes Inject my soul Bathe my wounds on the healer's pond Looking through the sky Lift my spirits, speak to my mind
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Geno 02:24
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Geno Hello, How's your heart? How's your soul? Stay happy, be fine. I see you. Onge gir lweny manelosi maduong'mohingo geno Kit chwech, dus mamigosi duto gin chenro Wanayar buombewa kwawero wende winy Chunjewa negud, ka yath mak ner e tie soko Kar paro jowa matho wewa kawakuyo Yie ni nyalo resi e apaka kata yembe makudho Gen kuom kut, inilo midekre tenge kod miero Dineonge thagruok kod ywak Ka piny otwe ta, tho luro, magoro kudhepap Kanyalo lal matut, ka abila winjo tuak Ating'ie chunje malo, gi wende mihoyo godo lit Buombe motur nyalo mana huyo e lwasi Ditinde onge njore mamiyo wadak ma onge nyasi Wanamwom, oru nyaka nam Kawapon e kind akuche kod asumbni Osiep irito gi hera Winjie kakagwelo puch kendagoyo nduma Ranen jayor jotugo kaling'o tugo e buch ajua Rao jaluor liel Kogno mathuon jaketh opich ajuala Omiyo asumo rieko kendaumo duga Mieche pon e dhier, tho kagirito hono Sir lek mabeyo Duond miyo ridore, rieny kendo kelo siso Tembe hima pile lamo merwa emaritaga Kademorna dadagi lweny e kind pinje kod oganda Ang'o mamonowa chung kod chir ma ok akweda? Piny ochido kendo otimo rumbi Punda winjo pek e bur bala kinango chumbi Tich matek emagolo buyepuothe Sigana ridore Kioyo mach, kidolo dongruok e nyakalondo Kipenjo gimomiyo piny yore Kipenjo gimomiyo ji olal e buch otonglo Koth ngero, geno onge nengo Bao nielweta, ong'we yamo tudo ote Kinde lwoko del ka yien ti kendo lwaro pote
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Till Julie 04:12
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Track - Till Julie - Best o Me Sorrows through the sad songs Borrowed life, if life is livable Loving with my gravity They say childhood comes back full of grief Spillovers, sweet innocent memories Sweet roses when I was sick They say the first cut grows deepest Grew up in my grandma's embrace You the first soul to listen to my silence Taught me how to breathe We exchanged crayons we bled free Mama said you were only divisible by me Beautiful black coffee, they laid down your coffin I don't know if you see me from the dark They say am metaphoric They pray for my melancholic They say I eulogize inside That's why I don't key the piano no more Cornrows and ponytail, your smile still visible Mama wept her soul dry, You were her only child Everytime she sees me she cries So I push blades to flower my mind But I know there's love beyond pain There's love beyond forgotten graves Remember grandma rocking us to sleep? She singing, "Child, even angels with broken wings fly!" I hope when you remember my fights Holes on the floors of paradise I remember how you cried I remember how you smiled I remember how love so young lives forever inside I remember how they sang on your demise This is for my liver fighting me inside Monologues, grey sepia and monochrome Swing cherry, old pictures and quiet storms You were Sade and I was Pac Is like music healing my broken parts Others left, I found someone to love Her sad eyes remind me of your pair of glass Ehen memories are heavy, I bleed Told me I could share your father if I never had mine My grandma was yours, Your mother was my own kind What would you have been Human right lawyer, a sad professor like me? Deeper in time, I hope your soul treats you kind Thank you for memories Thank you for helping me see my beauty inside
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Cures In Eulogy 02:42
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Track - Curse Storms Stendi, nilibaki lonely Wengi, walitafsiri singemake it Mirror inashow picha ya stranger flani Agosti, two thao na twelve Trauma, nilikuwanabattle life support Body ingebonga, misery na dilemma nimecross Nilizikwa kabla kufa, siku ndio haikujulikana Maua zliwither, kadi zikachoka kuimba Huwezijua zile uchungu nafsi imebeba Dua kwa misa, mwili ilingoja japo cure Hapo ndio meanings hufiwa, roho inajazwa angels wanadai foster Hapo ndio pulse yangu zikageuzwa song writer Ni ka visu kwa ulimi Kazi za misumari, gurdumu zimetema lami bloody Vitabu vya Tibet Nlikuwa nawahi food through mrija Mashini mingi, blues niliimbiwa Ufukwe sandy, meli yangu ikingoja departure Birthday, sticker notes za marafiki kwa kuta Wengi waligo under Ni freshy tu, sikujua maradhi ningekujapona Gurudumu flat, Black pariah, kupen glory ya survivor Habari zikashuka home Ati nimebaki garbage, bibi alilia machozi no Lawama sina Naelewa soul yako ilikuwa heavy Ulinipenda kabla body haijakuwa faulty Kabla mass tumours Kabla niitwe lovechild, kabla sijaachwa pori wivu ikazidi upendo, Rumours zikakuwa too much Barua ulinichorea ingeshinda soul kubeba Siku moja November Monitor zikawasha amber Verdi, 9th Symphony za Mahler Metal, alchemist akaishi tena Night Shift, hio picha plastered kwa kichwa Bevy kwenye telephone Madok walifurahi kuona soul yangu ikiteleport Barua yako imebaki kwa kiganja Hadithi za kusadikiana, so me huhisi kama flower vender Airbender, black pain, kidi mar luo kata tuo marach otieko denda! They say you can't push the river Sketchpad, tear falls blues for the life giver Curse storms, devils dancing on the matchstick Black rose, angels orbit around my body I winnow my scars, watched the fault of our stars I raised ma walls, down Blessed ma prose, clouds Hover ma soul deep in the skies Sweet sorrow, waiting for ma demise I died half a god Hyacinths, weed flowers on the bloody pond Pencils drip, viking warrior the boat builder They love when you gone Stiff, breathless, sniffing cotton through the nose Wet fingers flip pages of my fate Radiators spilling out my absence Big pharma, profits left cures erased Been left frozen Photographs, loveseats ghosted Raised my pen to heal my broken Cry homie, life's perishable Lost memories hosted sad poems See weeds may grow over my grave My brainfold may forget your necklace But the river flows Displace my forms, and I bled my soul Curse storms, crying for home Birthstones, after am gone, heaven gone mourn Southside, my final resting place

about

Cures In Eulogy? is a dedication to my personal lifetime struggles, my survival story with cancer and the endurances, hope for people in similar or different fates to not be limited by their journeys but use art as healing and comfort.

This collection is close to my heart, because it 'unmetaphors' my story. In as much as it retains some form of metaphors/symbolism and the complexity of my writing, in this album I open up into my story, steering into a more clearer understanding, one which I expect to identify with others and in the process inspire others.

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released June 16, 2017

#Cures Credit
Theatre of Scars
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
Inspired by 'unmetaphoring' my story, an opening and realization that it represented and
inspired many. A cast for all going through a difficult time.
Black Dahlia
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
Inspired by endless psychoanalysis of the turmoil, heartbreaks, questions inside me. It has
compartmentalized personas exchanging presentations, in unstructured manner, but
influenced by the 'crowd of ghosts' dialogues inside me.
Msalaba
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook/Reki Amollo
Credits to JKL: Cancer Warriors sampling Jeff Koinange and I
Inspired by the passing of Kanya, rest in power, I rewrote the first verse right after she was
lowered. As we left the beach, I was overwhelmed with lines to choose from, and it was hardly
noticeable to my fam we were with in the car how I struggled to fit in. The other verses are
pieces I have rewritten a thousand times. Also an Italian postscript, I am fond of orcashestral
taste which feels awesome in Italian, Spanish, French (or simply Latin).
4th Quartet
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
An interlude inspired by my childhood friends: books, music, poetry and letters. Also
playground thoughts, but put into here-now. Basically, a rejoining bridge between the first
and the next three tracks
Audacity
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by Mike Wudz/MC Spook
Inspired by the first time I was given the news of multiple metastasis. And it's a insistent voice
in my head, and the stirring traces in my heart to beat odds and deconstruct 'unfavourable
prognosis'. Also an affirmation that anyone else can have the audacity to 'defy clarity' and
make it out, again and again.
Dedication to Melancholia
Written/Performed by Ochuka and MC Spook
Produced by MC Spook
Inspired by the fear of losing love (my), the unknown, unspeakable moments trailing in the
heads of the people around you. Also a rebellion against my melancholic personality and
history. A bit of heartbreaks too often on the veneer of: "I am the problem here, not you,"
perhaps I have lost lots of friendships because of the difficulties I was facing. There's a few
outro bars dedicated to my daughter Beverly Chieng' Amollo - her recent absence in my life,
her beautiful words of encouragement the day I woke from a coma 20-08-2012. "I know you
wrote: tumours are terrible things to share a body with but you're terribly amazing. This story,
must not be yours alone, right?"
Misunderstood
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
Inspired by the remorsefulness I feel, especially thinking that perhaps there are wrongdoings
I have done to my loved ones and my peoples that I didn't know or know, that went further
to have me misunderstood. Those differences: "Thank you for crossing the rivers wide/you
were doing great until everything died/failed memories, remains and wastes the bkeakest
metonym/...your kindness was blessing me."
Reference to British Council/Goethe Institute event: Remains, Wastes and Metonym
What Gives You Hope Skit
Sampled from JKL: Cancer Warriors Edition 2016
Once In August
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
Inspired by death of my great grandmother Rosebella in 1995, I was very young, and
subsequently: nashindwa kujadili/kwa nini kila siku hofu/ananishika mkono kunibusu/najua
wanatuona toka far away, aminia!"
Also a reference to 'grass will grow' a famous poem, my uncle Odhiambo eulogized his
brother that way. Also, I lost the mother of my beautiful brilliant daughter in August. Let's
say, August is a special month in my timeline. A dedication to loved ones we lost, and an
inspiration to hold on, be better and stronger for they'd love for us to.
Dying To Have Known
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
Credits Atmosphere
Inspired by existential questioning of many bad things we go through, especially cancer that
has continued to defy even the most remarkable modern medical breakthroughs. Also:
"Sweet baby, grow your flowers from the furnace/uproot my pain/amber lights of February/I
hope you fetch from the deepest wells/and if I lever down I will look inside you and see
myself/... I couldn't explain adequately to my daughter after my diagnosis what next, where
do we go from here, and many people around me who kept/keep asking me, "but how? Why
cancer?"
"I guess the future is just itself: the future," I once told my love.
PTSD
Written/Performed by Kwame Miguda/Geo
Produced by Kwame Miguda
Certainly, any cancer patient will suffer serious mental illness and psychological degradation.
Around me, I had people calling and mailing me asking how I cope, some were on the edge.
Sadly, around here mental illness is unrecognized, widely avoided, ironically mocked
especially online. So this is inspired by deep connection I developed with psycho-mental
disorientation, I have given up, walked away from family and friends, wished I was gone, the
darkness was so disruptive. This to my peers, there is an increased reporting and statistics on
teenage/post-teenage depression, and even parents/folks too, yet they bury it deep. Find
healing. Be different. Let's all heal.
Al Inkishafi
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by Reki/MC Spook
Inspired by my long time friend Evans Love, and all the people who've believed in the
distinction in my works, such as good mastery of languages. A dedication to all the great
people who affirmed my wisdom and poetics. Inspired by the strength of writing, some days,
with unsayable pains. To all my educators, first my old man Frankie.
Way Beyond
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by Reki/MC Spook
Inspired transitions from place to place, time after time, looking for 'home'. Dedicated to
friends who've never left, like good times will come back around.
Ramani
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by Reki/MC Spook
Inspired by my cancer diagnosis
Don't Let It
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
An interlude inspired by holding on. I mean this world is depressing, they "mass charade/they
don't let it... ghetto withers her soul... lift my spirits speak to my mind."
Geno/Hope
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by Reki
Inspired by one of my favorite song, Hope by Twista and Faith Evans. Also the Dholuo prayers
of my grandma, all of the time sweetheart.
Till Julie
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by MC Spook
Inspired by Julie "Sade" Maunda, my twin childhood friend, rest in beauty. Also to memories
we carry through from the first 12 years of life. To knowing love.
Cures In Eulogy?
Written/Performed by Ochuka
Produced by Reki
To the phases of my journeys, especially a major heartbreak I had back then. Sometimes, all
at once, continuing with the story of deliberate indistinguishable bid to survive.

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Omondi Ochuka is a Kenyan poet, visual artist and thinker whose literary flare spans ages beyond his time. From an early age, he displayed an adept intimacy to books.

He's been defined by critics as abstract, rich in metaphor and symbolism; a Saul William-esque pen with a cryptically profound nature. Fused with classical verses and Hip-hop, he gyrates words into a web of intricate melodies ... more

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