I Give You Nothing But My Soul

by Ochuka

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1.
I (Who Have Nothing) 06:13
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Track — I (who have nothing) |Verse One: Ochuka| A cage of ballads, When they declared war on this body Days of ladders, When my soul unzips, I can hear the skies falling The rains calling Blu said Sometimes heaven is below the sky I’ve put myself under these dirty acres Sometimes, I wanna rip my fabrics with a lethal temper Paper punch on my flesh Is like the sequence of bad flaws coding my pain Rebel DNA Versus narratives of faith And when my old girl prays, I feel a little broken Playground swings are rusty And the grass towers her (she runs around feeling happy) She plants the flowers of my father in my veins She walks me through the valley With amazing grace When I met the Eclipse I was a spacecraft, The night star bulging through the universe breaking atoms wide open Then all my dreams deferred Tears falling on the exam scripts The graveyard stretch Dust granules, game theory, Professor who died before he dreamt The one who had nothing, Just a body to decay The glory of the highway Life’s a wonder, I who swallowed his soul to repair my pain The binary stars They say every word are between zero and one I dedicate this to melancholia I stub dreams where stains cover my canvas I touch the braille With the scars of fatal lovers The ones who thought we wouldn’t survive Before we get tossed on the graveyard Feral bladder Think tank but my memory dwell in tumours |Hook: Ash| Sentimental Tossed and turned My heart is growing cold My misery Is holding me |Verse Two: Ochuka| I’m with the ones who are not felt The disgraced, The dispelled, The ones who warm their souls with their in the flames I’m with the rejects Walked out on, the despised and the nobody’s I’m with the ones entangled in defects Walked on, Rewind this record if you feeling me I’m with the hopeless Pills and noose, razor blades on the wrists I’m with the forgotten The ones who also swallow their pain and drown in misery when push comes to shovel I’m with you momma I know how hard it gets, I love you momma I’m with the everyone Who lost a loved one Their pictures hanging on the walls Tears full of ashes Verses from wheelchairs, To lame limbs Walking by the crutches And when I die don’t put my body in a church The eye of the pen is ratchet That’s why they didn’t feel me when I wrote my Cures And left it at the cyber café The world is a facade That’s why we be looking for love but grow more sad (grow more sad) I who mourned in Cures, and bled down the drain I can still touch her beautiful face I could’ve named her shadows after my mother’s pain I could’ve Carved another sad poem Where the soils put you under, you laid But you were only a few weeks old I wonder why life’s dance floor is death The vinyl put an evil needle in my brain I remember when They burst open my body to find a cure that could last for days I remember when They mourned me everytime somebody slept at home, you dig? Lightworker Light-warrior Fireflies spark symphonies in the dead of the night I who left my own future on the sonogram I was only 19, And I had turned a soul too grey Tragic comedy Sick humours when these songs play And I think I would rather be a poet I’d rather be a stream, Than an empty bottle of lost messages Floating in the ocean I’d rather be a fire on the forest My soul yearns for deeper love and depth Titanic (She gives me joy joy joy joy...) When she colours crayons beside me She’s the motif in all my stories In coma twice, I saw her cross the rivers to watch over me And even though The last ship is swimming without a cure inside of me I still open my wounds and paint more than my blood group My name is O I survive in a degenerating body I write menus for your soul food I’m wack But when it comes to the wires I strangle with my voice Trust me it’s blue, blue blue I who have nothing. But my soul. We shuffle pills on the shelf before we die Hyacinths, bad weeds growing in my rich soils The cell is our casket We cross bridges when we get there I who watch the black holes as the moon serenades I who slopes the gradient Of death’s paranoia From the gates of our mother’s pains To the red clay, Brown grass and yellow tape I will fight through I who fights through I who has nothing, I who cries laughing I who believes doubting I who’s juicy with the love, sappy Sentimental, crown my roses when I am still here breathing Before they paint pictures on the tee-shirt Before I become memory lost in the fly trap Black keys and white keys I who have nothing I who brings the angels on my roof when I sing I who’s broken, yet they’d rather bury deep My joy is sad
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Wilaya Ya Mbali 03:38
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Track – Wilaya ya Mbali |Verse One: Ochuka| Kule tumetoka Death ilianza zamani kutuchezea poker Dark room, hata mkono ya muumba labda haiingetuunda Mimba ilikuwa ya potter Koyugi piny motimo lwala Jachwech ng’wenyo anywang’ marateng’ Nyakawa dala Mdomo ilikula pamba Body ikanusurika misumeno ka ya timber Wataka kuniua bure (bwana) Na sina makosa Tulizaliwa na maibilisi already walikuwa wanachimba Wakatupa daddy kwa mchanga From then till now, ni ka pia nafsi yangu ilizikwa Language najua viproper ni kiu, Ingawa soul kuna mifereji na kisima Daddy alipenda flowers Black Sabato, sauti naskia ni ya nirvana ikinitoka na sauti ya njiwa Weapons zimetumwa kunimaliza Lakini soul yangu pure, Nimegeukia imani ndio ni survive kila vita Minyororo zimenifunga Nimeshuhudia gharika nisivyowezapima kwenye hii kanda |Hook: Kamimo| I’m returnin g now Nimetoka kwa wilaya ya mbali Waambie |Verse Two: Ochuka| Siezipumua Navunjwa moyo nikiiskia sauti yako mama Pain yangu sieziexpress asubuhi ukilia kwa graveyard Ukiuliza mungu wapi ulikosea, usipain ma Dirisha ni ya Johari Nikichungulia mbalamwezi naona sura yako ya fahari Stanza nimweka my soul crying Siku kadhaa nafeel hope yangu inadie (skiza) Nimegeuza ulimi maktaba Nimeficha machungu ya jana, Ndo kesho nione mwangaza Ninajituma tena sana Dunia ni rangi ya kubadilisha Badala ya laughter jioni kwa meza ya dinner Ni kimya na picha za waliotuwacha kwa kuta Badala ya mabrothers kukumbatiana ni chuki, maumivu na vita Nimekula chafu kwa pipa Nimeumizwa hakuna mafanikio naona kwa picha Nimetemewa mate nikiwa wounded, nimejazwa na blisters Nimeishi na lawama tabasam haiwezificha For the stem For the thorn For the rose And for the grave For the songs That we wrote |Verse Three: Ochuka| Wilaya ni ya mbali, so tuliiweka kwa stanza Walitusema sisio halali, hakuna hata aliyetuaminia Tulifaa tuzime kabla safari kwa njia Tuliambiwa tutoke kabla hata hatukuwatumeingia Tuliondolewa moja mbele ya sufuri Tulikatazwa hoja, vidonda tukaongezewa chumvi Kule tumetoka Gravity Kila wikendi kuna nafsi inafinywa ndani ya matope Ndio nikiandika Wino ni kama, recipe Natoa uzi umeziba vidonda ndio nibleed properly You can’t heal If you don’t bleed You can’t live If you don’t breathe Na-rearrange elements za universe Ndio nisplit atom into Adam na Eve Naspin biro na grief ndio niwache eulogy kwa script Kile nilipenda iliingizwa jeneza ikatupwa kwa pit Chini ya magari, lami ni nyeusi inachill Matunda wanakula ndio inafilisha raiya mtaani
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Wasifu (Lost Soul) 02:47
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Track — Wasifu (Lost Soul) |Verse: Ochuka| Ulikuwa rare(?) Wasifu zina—stream live, HD mapambo singekewa Unatua safari Unawachana na kituo, mwili ndio gereza Nyakati zitasahau harakati no, ulizoendeleza Gizani unafumbwa, unanusishwa maua Usoni unafichwa, unavumishwa tu pindi umelazwa Foleni wana vibango, pichako na gazeti Habari zinakariri Uharibifu ambao vita vya maisha vilikutunza Wahadhiri wa mitaa, unarembeshwa ka bidhaa Enzi ulijuta walisimulia kando bila kukaribia Unapewa sifa(?) Ambayo wewe hustahili Leo hii tumepoteza sio msomi tu, Huyu ametuwacha kando na maktaba Alikuwa mselangu kitaa, wa kufaa na kupona Hata ilifaa ninunue zake CD pindi napata taarifa Unapewa fungu lako tisa Unatajwa kwenye sherehe Makumbusho na vita dhidi ya saratani Ulivyoona Mateso kila saa, Ulivyolemazwa bila siku za kufarijisha Wakakukanyagia, wakakuzimia mataa kisha wakakupotezea Madhabahu ya sanaa Uligeuzwa sanamu tu, haukufanikika kabisa Ukaishi vya kuhifadhi mafikra, mateso ukaponea Handakini rekodi wasanii wakabovya tu, Wakasulubiwa, kilio chao darubini, Filamu zika— Badilisha silaha, mwili ukageuzwa soko huru mitaa Eneo la tukio Afrika, Elimu duni, siasa mbaya, mauaji na vita Wamebadili mifumo za ku— Tafsiria misingi sawia (Nyakati za mashaka hizi) Ukaishi vya machozi (tu) Familia haijui unachopitia, masela wamekuwacha pori Siku za majonzi, alafu ukageuzwa hadithi, true story Uliwaza kujiua ili uondokewe na maumivu moyoni Ukajitenga na watu kisa kujiona lawama Wengine wakakuelegeza, Njiani ukapatana na wengine, wakakuwa your homies Mwisho ukateleza ndani ya shimo, hamna nuru gizani Sinema krusedi za macho zinasimuliwa Ulikuwa nabii, ulikuwa fighter(?) Ulikuwa mtunza fasihi, na mwanafalsafa(?) Jeruhi mwenye vidonda vya kufichwa Uswako kuna tabasam, usiku ni vita vya kunusurika (Mtu//Real) Dunia dance floor, masaa yanakatika Ulikusudia ya ngoma ukaishiwa maarifa Umeme ukaingizwa mwilini mara sita kwa wiki Mara unangoja picha zirudi na habari njema Dirisha back—seat, mbio dharura tena ghafla Unadondhoshwa madawa, mwanzo mabavu yanabana Ukakondeshwa na uvimbe, ukaishi vya dhamana Hapo mwanzo machozi Kukuja kurudishwa machozi, hakuna tofauti
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Mama Told Me 05:12
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Track — Mama Told Me Oh mama Oh mama Oh, mama mama.... |Verse: Ochuka| When I was young me and my mama had grief Six feet, deep down in the pit Pops flowers died, Left us with war scars to heal We cried lonely watching stars at nights we dream In 2 years, that followed, uncle Jay and Ottis We mourned, We cried the pain till we couldn’t feel Grandma was sad but she struggled to stand on her own two feet She prayed every day, holding her family It’s all by grace, we survived, what you telling me? Mama was sixteen Ashamed to come back home, she carried me Her mama was blue for real Instead of graduating with a college degree It’s like her daughter fell short of love in the road of deceit This ain’t how it was supposed to be But I was raised I was loved, My grandma’s arms became my first language of love I suckled her dry breasts without milk A quiet chubby boy, her little bundle of bliss I was blessed I was enough A Sharman teaching the soul to heal from the past I was raised before the light of my fam’s embrace A boy with a gift in nearly everything I still remember pop’s smile whenever he was feeling happy Do you remember me daddy? Or nowadays the flowers cloud the garden of heaven far away from me? You was my mom’s father But to me You’ll always be mine too, daddy! Tears fall my eyes when they say I look like you, daddy I remember everything mama did to survive with me Battled asthma at nights I was afraid she would leave me Little sister was young, My little brothers were young too She breathed through her weak lungs She said, boy you’re a gift You are God You’re full of my soul than my own blood You’re a star, my father’s dreams swim inside you my Son |Verse Two: Ochuka| I seen you struggle with the drama and the pain I seen you broken, blime mama, am sorry for the pain And all the years of shame, that didn’t you put you down I seen you grow from a little Sweet lady bless your soul Living through the memories, there’s a warrior in your crown All I wanted for you, dear mama, is for you to never blame it on yourself All I wanted for you, dear mama, is for you to set me free from myself To look inside of me and see the beauty in yourself To let me grow, and breathe, and refine my soul trough the flames To let me love you as you are For being my own father, my sister and my mom For breathing through me, mama you were just a little girl I seen you survive the worst And everybody laughed Sad that I never had much to pull you out the wreck I seen you sad, I seen smile, through the rain I seen you beat down by a man supposed to love and protect you from the pain I seen you cry, I seen you stumble and fall I seen you hope, I seen you through it all I seen you pray with so much pain in your soul I seen you rise through the journey dear soul Words cannot express everything I feel in the song When I miss you I tell the stars to watch over you, dear soul To heal you everyday and bless you with a pretty smile To hold on And never feel alone To garden yourself, cause you’re my beautiful flower You’re feminine love, I see you in my daughter To stay by the phone Your necklace hang by my walls, when I send my call Cause through it all, dear mothers, we appreciate y’all
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Fragile 02:53
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Track — Fragile |Verse One: Ochuka| I inherited these genes With knife stubs and silencers Samoro ginilit Ka rem ohewo ringra, yaye chunya yie mondiresa Sometimes I feel the drift Whenever it rips me with a lethal temper (T)his absence was my birth gift But today he mourns With fear because he knows That I love the essence of my deferred dreams Because a child understands everything And often wants to bleed beyond the hand and the sleeve, Take revenge to the inside to dismantle the grief But what would you have wanted me to say when life started to shrink? They say whoever lives by the sword Will perish under a scarlet moon But we’ve been Under the knife for long, Our blood is black and blue We choose to laugh and cry We choose to mourn at night with the fireflies Whenever the monster grimaces with its terrible signs They say whoever rises from ruins They know the vigour of the fights Since we taught ourselves to see Homie, we’ve been seeing the same sadness in every paradise Like passengers Looking at the universe through the great divide. |Hook: Ochuka| After the party all fades There is more noise, we turn the page The chairs are empty, goodbye everyone Reality comes back, it’s hard to carry the load! |Verse Two: Ochuka| After the party the roses sting our souls, Sleepless we die in our broken in our arms We pass a moment and then we say goodbye 1-month file, 1 year, Then, We call more We must believe that the abyss be gentle Whenever we stare with sad eyes, Sometimes sitting at home, I see faces I scroll in my daydreams of those who have left this shoreline In the mirror the faces are redrawn, The features harden Grief stings like a soul too broken The nothing to do with everything becomes Life for rent, we sign our bodies for lease The view is veiled, We lose sight of time, the quiet thief. The future keeps ringing the bell The weather stabs Brushstrokes on the walls These streets cradle our dreams and homes They witness our childhood grow, Some wounds have disappeared, Others have remained Life has taken a hold, the deepest have resisted Joy has happened And we think more of tomorrow than yesterday in search of some form of happiness. Everyone fights for themselves, Some hope from the bottom of their prayers One fine day it arrives, bless the souls of rhyme sayers It becomes rare The air we breathe is the same one that sends us to the fucking grave! — Aprés la fête?
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Blossom (I Remember) 03:16
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Track — Blossom (I Remember) |Verse: Ochuka| Little did I know that the body be a little boat, A little seed floating over the darkest sea Son of the soil The earth is a dirty mirror See the reflections of a soul too weak to watch the skies turn greyer And someday When they excavate for dead bones in my lyrics Would i be far gone? I only wrote roses And the poison they bloom inside my rebel cells I’ve put ink on these dead woods, But that ain’t mean I got another coffin to sell? Beyond memory do time really forgets? Before the body & the tumour Is we really having another story to tell? Cause then there’s a hidden point of fate That PET//scans couldn’t sketch Degenerate I could look like an ink of prayer items but inside i feel powerless Trapped inside a body that only knows death Or memories made of dark graves I sit here thinking what would have i become If I never run through the wreck It’s like, unplugged from the air that puts our body in pain My mind has turned against me I see the trauma video on the walls & am the project Hologram pictures on the walls of grand melancholic display Two little lilies floating on the blue waves Gravity ponds, I miss her so bad, her face begin to look strange Yet the world bursts open to rekindle the flames We are Made of music that’s why our hearts moan As blood flows Thru the veins, we have holes like bloody flutes Ma I write letters everyday that could damage your soul I feel too broken In fact these days i ain’t even feeling like i belong Every day is a Starry night, i could stab the canvas out my soul to free my Van Gogh But what’s freedom? After i turn too black for a cotton? And am just Another bubble that fell when i got poisoned by the crab? I am a gemini Two sides to every gamble, what do i do when the grades go third? My tongue is heavy cause it carries the storm I don’t know how to breathe no more I think one of these days i’ll drown in a river so deep, And maybe i’ll forget and fade away inside out 3 dots after my pain Suspend these theatre of scars Watch straight through the stars & ask them of they will remember my name?
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Jana (Winter Child) 04:05
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Track — Jana (Winter Child) This one for you bro Days like these... |Verse One: Ochuka| Nikiziba macho baado me hukuona sura kwa face Nika hukuenda toka day one hadi today It’s all good homie, Ulinihold down fiti ready kuride Najichukia big time sikuwa by your side Na ulisema siku ya kuhema ni zile ukinilaza kwa stretcher Juu pain kwako ilikuwa misimu under the weather Ulipodie homie, nika tulideady pamoja Sikujua maombi, toka enzi fate mbaya ilitungoja Nilijua tungeliven dreams, visionary crossover Na tungemind-spray kuta hizi za maktaba Na baado mi hukumbuka simu sikutakakuskia Ati ulishuka na hio tumour kwa grave Hospitali tu matremor, mother akabaki ukaenda far away Hakuna vibe for my pain Hakuna cure imebaki, kwa hearse maglesi ziko taint March 4th itawahikuwa same Na mother alisema only God anaezatuliza hii pain Ndio nakumwagia ink, homie Sikujua ni we ndio ntakuwa namourn Maisha fairytale, Here now, gone next, ain’t no words for my pain, homie I’m glad we crossed our paths Your memories still here, even though your soul is far away |Hook: Ochuka| Even though your heart is broken Filled with pain And you feel the sun will never shine Again You’re not alone There’s one who understands There’s a better day than yesterday |Verse Two: Ochuka| Nakuandikia hii barua Jay, juu sitawahiforget Ulikuwa miaka kumi body yako ikagueza battlefield Juu nature hudesign na kumarvel defects Blues ikabaki kilema, barabara yellowtape, death iko speedy memory lane Kuishi vita bila sunny ama better days Iliniuma, juu ilifeel ni ka Bevy wangu ndio anabattle the fate Kile utakuwa ukigrow saa haijulikani Sabu life yako kwa pedigree ilikutwa reaper kwa face Na ukikosa maana huwa unequal pain Maua huzidigrow ghetto mawingu ikishuka na rain Heart yangu iko broken Ilikuwa just the other day ulifaa upewa chemo kwa vein Na tukawrestle master moves fiti za chess Ndio nikaandika hii vesi juu ninafeel your pain Ulipodie nilijua roho yangu itaremember your name Jay Asubuhi ziukuja na shades Juu alfajiri huwa aftermath ya colors of pain Black parades So nafsi huwa heavy, ninastay strong Na memory baado freshy ni ka ndio imego down Tulikuatukiishi tu, ndio uswara kutucloud Hii sio vile ilifaa iwe, ilibidi So na snotty nose, kulia everyday kumbuka kukeep breathing Tulikuwa baado wadogo kuanza tu kudeady Kulipia gharama na mistakes Na siku yako ikifika soul yako waitake Ilikuwa bahati tu, love na kuuphold the faith Wengine huzidi siku wako old and grey Wengine life freshy, others njia mipigo na pain Soul yangu naomba iwekwe safe Ndio niko on my way, nirvana au hereafter wasinizime kwa gate I need you to: See me through I need to: Hear from you I need you to: Wipe my tears away Give me: Better days than yesterday
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Never Know 03:03
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Track — Never Know |Verse One: Ochuka| All these poison in my body, drowning to myself Funny how they say it numbs the pain But deep inside we know it never helps (Never helps) Sometimes it feels like they feed you pain through the veins Lately I just don’t know where to go I just hope there’s some more life still left to live Trying not to think about it now Grab my soul, drowning to myself Trying not to lose myself inside the emptiness What gets me is the inevitable is two steps ahead of us, look Sometimes I feel like there ain’t no happiness left in us I start to feel like this world, it just isn’t meant for us They hate us, And they play us, And they breaking us down They find the things we love and take away what we found And the closest people to us drift away as we drown Dear Soul, Gave you all I ever had, don’t run away from me now I would’ve died for you, lived for you, I would have killed I would’ve tried for you, hurt for you, I couldn’t feel Instead I lied to you Now you gone and I’m tryna heal But I’m so numb looking for something to feel |Hook: Ochuka| But I don’t wanna waste time, you know I was there for you Even though it takes time, you know that I cared for you If you needed anything, I would take the fall for you Could’ve been my everything, could’ve gave it all to you Would’ve gave it all to you |Verse Two: Ochuka| They say fate is a destination that odds never cross The Rubicon River red, another pool of pain, Inside me are stories that probably will never be told The needle threading me to water, not even a tear fall I’m dry (like the grain of sands burning my bones) It’s like (the muted prayers on shaking lips) When you type and press erase back on the phone I’m blind (the music box turn into a bird-box) The fever cooks you like tremor that inflicts the fort Defenceless, The heart throbs bloody sabotaged by a heavy rock The anvil presses the tongue Feels like dejavu, walking in scrubs, feels like a War Room Once they put a blade on your pain I guess that’s how it never stops to bleed Once the stars desolate, pariah gifted with the curse of a dying breed And I feel like Sunflower seeds bursting open to follow the sun I think about fire immolating after funeral grass But I ain’t wanna Leave this wreck of a body trapped inside the wood behind the glass I ain’t want no requiem or black regalia in a church I just want My ashes gone with the wind; do I need a wish to ask? I ain’t want her to grow Knowing I chose a rope instead of a crutch (fuck) Sometimes don’t you feel like death isn’t the worst? Sometimes don’t you wish you could have ended before you start? Remains and waste I wonder if they’ll open my grandfather’s gates To cover the shame And erase the scars with a sunken grave Funny how you write your story that you never had, homie Sadly, how mama tried everything she could to survive for me When night unfolds And my strange fruit drops down When they write my flaws I hope that finally the end may give me love and home And I guess we never know (Said, now we probably never know)
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Days Like These 04:21
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Track — Mama Said (Days Like These) |Verse: Ochuka| Like a boxer in the ropes That’s how you often felt, homie You often doubled the stake and every time you lost it For every break on the ground There is a mark on your wall You only have left A tiny piece of chalk in your hand You have been counted down more than a few times And for the K.O. sometimes not much was missing So many right hands have blown you out of your shoes But you were every time Back up before the count was ten Back up before the count was ten Najifunza ku—maneuver, sio kazi rahisi ku—stand tall Mind iko viti za mbele Moyo unaskuma damu through the chokehold Najifunza kutabasam na jua Kipaza imekuwa na vitu sad tele Roho inauma, bafu nimeanguka kwa floor Nadai kujifunza dua Najifunza beauty vague ya maua Ile ukichunwa chini ya jua Najifunzakuvuja ndio nitoe pressure from the inside Hao hukuita warrior Hao huku—show wana—feel soul yako through the wire Hao husema vile soul yako ina—inspire Hao husema walikuona beyond your scars And your battles And your pain Even though you been broken before Najifunza kujituma with my back against the wall O-the-sunflower-soul O-the-lightwarrior, be strong bro Najifunza kujipea love Nka kuishi ka flower shop Najifunza soul Najifunza kuona ka kuna more life left in me Najifunza ku—hold on (am feeling unsteady now) Najifunza ku—breathe, Beyond these aching bones Nka kisu flani ndani yangu sieziguza hii pain Nawashwa ka jivu before i—get cold Siku mob niko ndani ya ring Veins zimegeuka mrija ya kunifunza ku—bleed Najifunza ku—cherish Kila day juu ya ground above Najifunza kuona through the bad weather Najifunza kukuwa my own best friend Juu staki siku yangu ikifika sina hata faraja kwa face Juu staki love iniwache broken Staki nibebe lawama, pain yangu niiweke kwa pen Najifunza kungoja Najifunza kujipea hope, on me The last wish ni kuguza sura ya daughter with a smile on my face Najifunza kupona, man Hii body ni wreck Hii body ishachoka kunibebea udongo through the rain, homie Najifunza love pia kuwa tender na forgiveness Najifunza tena vitu nilisahau, time forgets Huu mwili sio tu flowers, na mass graves Kuna wenye wameiguza waka—feely kitu pure na peng Najifunza ku—own my healing from the pain For days Crowd ina—tear Ukiguza waya ni blades For days, nime—bite dust, nimeisha fire Siezieka nafsi yangu kwa tape And then I smile And then I rise from the ashes My phoenix riding from my inner child The crowd, The ring, The beats, That’s all metaphoric, sure Your own ego was your greatest adversary But in the end it doesn’t matter Which way you win the fight with yourself And you keep hoping, that maybe A lucky punch might give you the turnaround You have been counted down more than a few times And for the K.O. sometimes not much was missing So many right hands have blown you out of your shoes But you were every time Back up before the count was ten Back up before the count was ten
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Light Warrior 04:21
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Track — Light Warrior |Verse Two: Ochuka| Naishi za flashback Juu any time, any moment naezatokwa na soul, man Juu any day juu ya ground above Wanasema ni blessing Kabla utupwe mbali, unangaliwe chini ya mbao na glesi Kile imebaki ni kuhadithia kwa njia Sio kwa bahati mbaya Tunaishi ka maua juu ya grave, Freshy tumekuza pain nafs’ inauma Maisha gereza? Picha zetu zinaflicker, flashing light Mikosi inatokea, Una—do time, The clock is blind Mbio speedy, sauti za mauti Uko alive, So unajua blade ndio hufanya ukunga kuwa bloody Jeans Vaco, Rusha D—block, sinema ni ma—horror tu It’s Airforce (Ochuka) Hii ni kwa ma—soldier wangu ndani ya struggle Pod apek pek meli, Oywa Wuod Nyakach Ogero Genes double, Ngazi ina kasoro, Wenzangu wengi wako blacklist Mapitio, leo unauza duka Kesho dunia imekueka maisha ndani ya chupa Hauna dhamana wala azimio, Leo unablast, Tena full blast A’f siku ingine unapigania uhai, body inafight back, Mind yako wanajua ni theatre Lakini umetengwa umebakia kuwa beggar Unaugua ugonjwa deadly, Soul yako wameieka kwenye stretcher Wanasema kwa lab hakuna remedy Kustruggle ndio u—stay afloat, kila siku una Heavy grief Madawa matibabu zime—fail So nikingoja kifo me hu—breathe Don’t give up home, homie Nikiwa low Naswing soul yangu juu ya waya ka nguo za dhobi Ndani ya fani, Umekufuru kwa hizo kanda walikutupia maua juu ya jeneza Jalada imetafsiri Mwisho wa mchezo Sometimes Unajikuta ukitazama life yako inago—down Tragically! |Hook: Kamimo| I’m a warrior (Warrior) Coming to this fight, yeah (aihe!) In the dark night Coming to bring light |Verse Two: Ochuka| Hii ni classic Kwa wale wana—find inspiration in my story Ukiguza wino unawacha melancholia juu ya mafikra Symphony ni ya saba After Cures, Niliona picha mbaya polonium kwa scan Kamikaze, Though sikutaka hii plane kucrush Mbalamwezi ndio hunipea huruma na love Juu nuru ikizama staki niathirike ni—die sad Juu kila love song ndio hunimind trip very far Gharika ndio ilifanya nijitenge na watu Sampler zimejaa blues mingi opera na jazz Naomba msiba uniondokee Nikifeel body yangu ina—cramp, Body yangu ina-shut Baado me hutazama juu nikijiuliza, “Why you?” Dunia ikichenji rangi nimewachwa blue Baado me huwa close to the phone Juu any day, miracle inaeza—happen through the call Hold up bro, Na kila niki—put soul yangu kwa hii craft Naskiza soul yako ina—fire back Sina idea ka utaskiza hii track Sijui vile naezaeka life yako kwa verse Truth reigns above Romi leta barzenga tu—disorder ma—imposter Hii ni kwa ma soul searchers Bila soul, sijui ka tunge—survive na maujanja Vita ilitukuta in our prime, Sometimes tulibaki bovu bila pa kugeukia There was a lot of things in life that brought me pain But when I hear you breathe, I know everything will be okay Nacheki mommy kila day nina—hold on Nacheki mommy ana—pray kila day nina—get strong This too shall pass, and it won’t be long. This too shall pass, we won’t pain no more. Breathe on. Be still, my soul. |Hook|
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Walking in the Rain 03:21
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Ochuka — Walking in Rain Written/Performed: Ochuka, Buya Marach, Mike Wudz Beat: Mike Wudz Vocals: Ochuka Once again, we jammed to a track remembering the first tale we did together (Meeting the Eclipse, 2014).
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Her Smile 04:28
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Track — Her Smile |Verse: Ochuka| Unapokaa mbali nami Nafeely ninatokwa nirvana, Huwa nakonda hivi navyofeel najibana Chini ya weather, Ni wino nimemwaga Nikihisi hauko karibu yangu mami Naamka, Barua niliandika zimerudi Bahasha baado iko sealed Natamani niwe Unayekumbuka before you fall asleep Natamani jiwe, Liniondikee gharika nikiamka asubuhi Na kila siku huwa niko hoi, maze Kukicha ni juhudi za kufanya roho, ipate Mwangaza Na kila kitu sikuwahimeki happen Huwaga heavy hane Vile walilower you kwa casket Mchanga kwa mkono, Tukiwa za bye Na inakaa huwa ni jana kwenye dreams Sikudhani Dua langu, La nafsi, Memories naziweka kwenye fani Sometimes, Nafeely niko loooonely, am feeling unsteady now Na tena roho inazama Ka meli ndani ya maji Ndio maana siandikiangi Me huwaga nableed Na kama siandiki rangi mbaya nabreathe Kichwani nimeinua toka mbali from here Kifuani niondoe pressure ngori na fear Na wengi wako hopeless Wainue macho wapi? Heal ma soul, I cry for ma hooomies Skuizi visa, nuksi Mikono misumari Nafsi inauma for days Na wanasema ukivuja Ndio huwaga uko hai Yo mi nataka bless watu wengi through my story Sababu upendo miujiza Ndio imekuwa everything I had Kulala usiku machozi, Dua njema homie, Yes, you can ask for ma help Unacheki ceiling, Unafeely flooded na memories Na hizi feelings, Pindi hunifanya very sad So nainua pen deeper Juu kila mtu story yake, Kuta zimebomoka Ndio hufanya dam breaking This is a man aching Kungoja na subira unpigie sometimes Na wishes mingi za kuamka na namba yako kwa screen Funga macho, Urudie siku tukiskiza ngoma kwa Park Au siku tukingoja usiku uwe less black Au siku tukiheldiana closer Japo safari Ilituwacha na mingi broken parts Siku hazigandi, Vilvyolea viliundwa Na kuna siku miwa huishiwa utamu wa sukari Na kuna days, Uchungu maradhi Unaumiza yule anayekuhifadhi Taanzia tu Hisia za lawama Kama enzi za utoto zikilea juu ya stream Na mto huwa fond Vile ziufuata gravity Na vile flow visu kali Zinachanja poems on your lips Ikipotea, inapatikana Tukaponea, licha ya kutaabiana Na ndoto huwa njema Ukiamka ndio unafeely kujikana Si huwa kama journal yangu Nachora taswira huku fikra ni mascars He nyota pia huwa na makosa? Uskonde men, Ro na Mi, tunakuwishi dua njema Wakiuliza lipi tegemeo? Ndio nikitunga kanda Na make sure its smooth and mellow Soothe your soul I see you aching in your soul I see you hurting from your stories untold I see you hoping, life would grow I see a sunflower and a rose I turn this house to a happy home I see you healing, turn the lights down low I hear you singing sad songs I see you baby, is your love song Is your love song Is a love song.
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Time Forgets 04:16
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Track — Time Forgets |Verse: Ochuka| Some days I close my eyes just to see where you dream Some nights I open my wounds to see the colours of my pain My own deaths have taught me how to breathe Are we only red by the colours we bleed? Another gramo’ Piercing through the melodies It ain’t been long since I penned Rivers Run Deep Modern day pain Instead of memories we store cemeteries in the head Bonafide decay Where am from your own body can die before you do Being black living with a body at war (?) Wear gloves in aching bones Wealth is when, Roses they bloom Through tubes & crying screens, I saw life unfold We be under the weather, depressed and lost I watched the systole crush Like market figures My fibers crunch That’s why I wrote ventilators under critical debrief So many days am cold, It’s like My own blood is another sand of snow They say everyone has a story But some of these Would rather be untold I got a, Grave for a chest So when I lift my lips to speak, I lay down the wreaths I gotta Refrain from the pain We root for love to conquer all In battlefields The chips fry, you ain’t nobody till you wrestle with your flaws Eventually, Everything dies, everything gets old Everything gets rusty, everything gets old When they ask why I shutdown they not ready I sleep on my tongue cause it could destroy a soul Still-shot memories We still walk into flower shops With a eulogy taped on our souls There was a time When I only wrote sad songs Only silence can speak purely thru to my soul We all wounded miracles Bleeding by night, smiling by day Surviving these fights and carrying our pain away We watch fate untangle, tragically. We die in our shadows, tragically. We watch the graceful moon rebirths Another live burial Grandma’s yarn She says healing is entangled in a mess A time to be born, A time for little bird to leave the nest A time for love, A time for x-ray cause slug is stuck in the chest A time to gather North Stars for your birthday A time to put a mountain, on top of a grave I’m a vet But I got limbs worn out, like war stories of reject I couldn’t Weaponize all these scars I carry, I’ve been checkmate to puzzles In fact, I even got my last letter somewhere in the scribbles We was, left with no choice but survival Sometimes breathing becomes a sad struggle They say as long as you breathe, you gone have a battle scars So lift yo head up where your soul truly cracks Through sorrows in the plot line See when we crush We break atoms free, we are the universe Sometimes you wait for the violins to cry When future is disabled, You only live, a day at a time How much do a body gotta take? 12th November, body was that really the day that you died? Or was it the day Death found a rich body to hide? Star light, starry night through the milky way My Van Gogh stabs through my soul with a leap of faith I stare at the canvas like an empty space But time forgets how many times I have been dead!

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Album: IGYNBMS
Artist: Omondi Ochuka
Year: 2019

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released May 1, 2020

Executive Producer: Buya Marach, Mike Wudz, Kwame “Logical Truth” Miguda
Producers: Reki Amollo, Kwame “Logical Truth” Miguda, Mike Wudz,
Vocals: Ash, Kamimo,
Recorded, Mixed & Mastered at: Mantra Studio, Eldoret
Photography: Brian Otieno, Osborne Macharia
Artwork: GruffLee

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Omondi Ochuka is a Kenyan poet, visual artist and thinker whose literary flare spans ages beyond his time. From an early age, he displayed an adept intimacy to books.

He's been defined by critics as abstract, rich in metaphor and symbolism; a Saul William-esque pen with a cryptically profound nature. Fused with classical verses and Hip-hop, he gyrates words into a web of intricate melodies ... more

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